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January 31, 2006
Burning the candle from the middle
Katie will be 9 months old next week, and in that time I think I've slept through the night once.
This has got to stop.
This weekend, if not sooner, we'll be letting her cry herself back to sleep. A lot of you probably thing it's about damn time, letting her learn to sooth herself, and you're right. The problem has been that ever since she learned to pull up, she'll be up and standing at the end of the crib before she's even fully awake, and every other time we've tried to let her get back to sleep on her own, she's never so much as laid back down. I'm not sure if the problem is that she's out of it and doesn't really know how to get down, or she's just more obstinate than I am. She's old enough to learn to get herself back down, and old enough to learn that I'm going to win.
I hope.
I'd love to do this some other way. I've taken into account sickness, reflux, hunger and teething. But I'm at the point where my lack of sleep is going to make me do something irrational. I think it's been a big contributor to whatever level of depression I've been experiencing. (That's my hope at least, that I'll get more sleep and my personal dark cloud will lift a little.) I'm hoping that I'll be a better parent, particularly to Jamie, who's mere presence irritates me, mostly in the morning when I'm at my worst.
I'm pinning a lot of hope on this sleep thing.
Let's hope it works.
Posted by me at January 31, 2006 8:55 PM