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November 26, 2005
Tis the season
We put up our Christmas tree today. I can't believe it's that time of year again already. I was editing some of my older posts on LiveJournal and I couldn't believe how much my daughter had changed, and how much my life has changed since we left Texas.
I still haven't figured out if the way I view my kids and my life now is a result of the climate, the living arrangements, the additional child or hormones. When I look at those old pictures, I think I was happier then, but was I really? Or is it just that I can't believe that I'm unhappy now?
I've recently become more entrenched in my life here. I had joined a couple clubs last year and this past summer, but I think I've only recently started feeling comfortable and a part of them. I'm really going to miss a lot of the women I've met in the last year, and the friendships I'ms starting to develop.
It's sad that I'm already pulling away in some ways, like not making plans too far in the future. Not accepting obligations that I'm not sure I'll be here to fulfill. And yet I don't really know when or where we're going.
Posted by me at November 26, 2005 8:30 PM